Just like the moon

She was beautifully

Out of place.

Sometimes I believe

She intended to be.

Like the moon during the day.

-D.R.

For a long time, one of my biggest fears was being alone. Sitting by myself at break, walking to class without a friend at my side, spending weekends at home in solidarity.

This last week changed that.

Starting a new school in my grade 11 year has taught me a lot so far. I, as most new kids would, spend most of my breaks doing homework in the library. The difference with me though, is that I actually prefer that. Obviously, I am still open for meeting new people and hanging out with those I like... but funnily enough I don't feel like I'm missing anything being on my own.

As J. Krishnamurti said: "It's beautiful to be alone. To be alone does not mean to be lonely. It means the mind is not influenced and contaminated by society."

We often think it's embarrassing to be seen walking alone and sitting by ourselves and therefore settle for being around people who add nothing to our life. I noticed this week that yes, I did feel verry awkward sitting alone at first...until I started looking around and realized how many others were doing the same. When I looked at them, I didn't feel embarrassed for them, instead I admired them. They stood out. Kind of like the moon during the day. Instead of being dimmed by all the friend groups around them, it seemed to make them more rare, more lovely.

There is something so beautiful in being satisfied with your own company. Being happy with the person who will spend the rest of your life with you. Getting to know yourself better.

There is something so beautiful in having to face the world, knowing you can do it alone if you have it. Knowing your worth is not based on how many friends you have, how many people know you or what others think about you.

For the first time, I'm beginning to look forward to the precious moments I get to spend with myself, away from the fear.

Just me.

"she liked the moon because, like herself, it shined its brightest when no one was around to see"

Emma M

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